Found it on alf's blog
10.28.03 (5:29 am) [edit]You're a dark, scary gothic person who wears black.
Do you sort your laundry into different shades
of black? You scare every single person you
come in contact with and you may or may not
have friends. Most likely you sit at home on
your computer, lie around dreaming of suicide,
or pine over the one you love and write sad
songs about drugs, cutting and never-ending
torture. You may also be a pothead or addicted
to some kind of drug.
what kind of goth are you?
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Everyone else took so I did too....
10.26.03 (10:21 pm) [edit]
You should be dating a Leo.
23 July - 22 August
This mate is honest and loyal, with a sunny
disposition. Though this lion has the tendency
to be arrogant, sulky or smug, he/she is
unrestrained in bed.
What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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BORING!!!
10.26.03 (7:00 pm) [edit]Grr this weekend has been even more boring than usual!! I wonder how long it's going to take me to get used to someone asking me my age and not answering 17.....kinda odd feeling. Now I'm gonna have to get my car fixed and get a part time job.....blah I really don't want to be this is a matter of need not want AND IT SUCKS!!!!! Getting older to gain freedom is so over rated.
"Insanity is not something you grow out of, it's something you grow into."
~Hannah (ME!!!)
Hehe...yeah I got up to early..
10.25.03 (8:21 am) [edit]I just love quiz results like this :arrow: :arrow: :arrow:
If you can't figure out where the stupid arrows are pointing you need glasses and a brain implant
What's it matter....
10.24.03 (7:51 pm) [edit]Grrr I need to go to hot topic....but daddy won't take me!!!! :cry: "I don't have the money" He says. I only wanted to pick up one thing.....just one and I've got the money for it *pouts* hmm maybe wal-mart will have it..GAh shit again I still can't get down there either!!!! *bangs head against wall* STupid StUpid stUPiD!!!! ...yes I like to rant about stupid stuff so get over it!!!.......I'm gonna go see if I can't find something creative to do instead of banging my head against the wall........ :roll:
HA! Beat ya Rachel!!
10.23.03 (7:02 pm) [edit]http://www.gamewyrd.com --
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 Alin |
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Early morning ramblings...
10.23.03 (6:01 am) [edit]I thought about begging daddy to take me to school this morning. I really don't want to have to face that cop this morning and I know he'll be there waititng on me. Maybe he'll take me and then I can catch a ride home with someone after school. Ginger probably would bring me home or atleast get me within walking distance of home. Hmm who else do I know that drives to school??? Grr if I hadn't taken matt home yesterday I could have talked to the elem. principle!!! Oh well to late to cry about it now....school is more trouble than it's worth!! I'd lay out but Mrs. Brown would kill since I've got a test today in her class!!!!!!!!! Kim I've been using your blog as a stereo...I love the music on it!! :D I still have a hour to figure out what to do........I'm screwed that's what! *groans* I forgot I had english homework...hehe that's what 1st is for..homework for my other classes. WEEEEEEE daddy said he'd take me to school!!! SOooo now I can just get off at granny's this afternoon. YAY YAY YAY :D
Now I'm here...now I'm gone....
10.22.03 (7:18 pm) [edit]Three more days till my birthday!! I'm finally gonna turn 18!! I really couldn't care about that though. Odd really...7 months ago I couldn't wait...now it doesn't matter. Then again several things I cared about then are nothing more than vage memories while others I've grown to love. OOOOoooo that's a rare word for me! :shock: GAAAAAAAH Nothing has been right with me lately!!!!! OMG I had a run in with the cops this morning!!! Their out to get me I tell you!! No really...he stopped and as if I paked at the elementryhowever you spell it) and go up to the highschool. I told him yeah. The he said something about someone complaining about people parking where I was and asked if I had permission. I asked the damn principle last year if I could and she said yes!! SO WHAT'S THEIR FUCKIN PROBLEM!?!?!?!?! If I have to deal with that same cop in the morning I'm gonna loose my temper and wind up sitting in jail till daddy gets home to bail me out. I've got the worst luck when it comes to things like this. Today was probably the last day I'm gonna see matt in a long time. And this year several of my friends get out of that hell hole as well...*sigh* It sux but that's life.
Forgot to mention...
10.20.03 (6:45 pm) [edit]Jessica got me a graphite sketch set and a new sketch book for my birthday!!!! WEEEE Now I'll have plenty of pencils to draw with :twisted:
And the sun shines on me today.....*Cover eyes and runs from it*
10.20.03 (6:39 pm) [edit]Got through second period and I'M STILL ALIVE!!!!!!!!!! After school has been one problem after the next. The worst being that the dodge was deader than a three year old corpse!! I had to call daddy to jump the thing off.....it was his fault after all. I really spend to much time out of the sun.....not even a minute went by and it felt like someone stuck hot iron to my skin and eyes!!! When daddy drove up I was on the opposite side of the dodge trying to keep in as much shade as possible ^_^; I need help I know....Aside from that everything else hasn't been to bad except I'm almost out of frosting!!! WAAAAAAAHHH
Strike one!!
10.20.03 (6:34 am) [edit]Last miute desperation pulls through again!! At the last minute I managed to get those damn source cards finished..and I do mean last cause I've got tleave in like two minutes....BYe-BYe
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ARRRRRGG!!!!
10.19.03 (10:22 pm) [edit]I'm about ready to beat my head against the wall and scream!!! I can't find jack sh** about terrorism that makes any sense what so ever!! Why in the unforgiving world did I chose to work in a group?!?! Now everyone's grade in my group is riding on me at the moment...and this is bad very bad. GRRR I'd like to take all these index cards and make Mrs. Brown eat THEM :!: :!: :!: GAWD I HATE THIS!!!!!!!! *starts screaming loud enough to wake the dead*...........that really didn't help any..............My head is pounding and it feels like acid has been poured in my eyes *whimpers* I need some serious help with this ....
10:14......
We're fu****!! I still can't find anything. Well I can defiantly forget sleeping tonight. Forget it I'll try again in the morning..... :cry:
Just another day...
10.19.03 (3:49 pm) [edit]I know your sick of seeing me....hell I'm sick of seeing me too!! There's nothing else to do so I might as well write ion this dang thing!! Marissa's over here at the moment....still doesn't help the boredom. I'm supposed to be gather internet sources for the stupid research paper for english...yeah can't you just see me workin so hard on it. I really need to get off here and get busy on it but I reeeeeally don't won't to!!!!!
I know..another one
10.18.03 (9:15 pm) [edit]Most people drown their sorrows in a bucket of ice cream. Well me, I prefer a pint of vanilla frosting! ^.^ The reason: You don't eat nearly as much of it and it does the job....probably cause there's more sugar in it. It does have it's draw backs which I'm suffering from now...STOMACH ACHE!!!! ..urrg...does anyone have a 7up and a fresh lemon??
IT'S ALIVE!!!
10.18.03 (3:56 pm) [edit]It's workin It's Workin!!!! oook need to calm down...YAY!!! The music on my blog wasn't working but now it is!!! Dumby even figured out why....aren't I smart...NOT!!! :D
Lazy days...
10.18.03 (12:46 pm) [edit]If breathing didn't come natural I'd probably die today! That's just how lazy I am at the moment. Well the fact that I sat up all night might have soemthing to do with that. I'm glad it's the weekend...if I had to look at those teachers for one more day I swear I was gonna go mad!!! I would have said insane but it's a little late for that....don't you think so too?
Dancing To Near To The Devil's Gate
Standing here alone and confused
I cry out into the night
No shoulder to lean on when I can't stand alone.
No kind words to ease my troubled heart.
No one dares to lend a hand they only stand there and stare
I'm an outcast dancing to near to the devil's gate.
My souls destroyed only memories of long passed days remain.
Theres no hope for one such as I
as I dance to near to the devil's gate.
A bleeding heart but tears no longer reach my eyes.
Love and happiness are only a vague memory in my already clouding past.
With a withered soul and a tortured heart
I dance to near to the devil's gate.
Thank You
10.17.03 (6:58 pm) [edit]This entry is more of a thank you to all my friends. I noticed that all my screen names and junk like that had something to do with death or darkness. It made me realize how close I was to it. I'd given up on life...the only thing that gave me that little wisp of hope was a few close friends. A simple hi from them could brighten my day and hanging around them keep the shadows from consuming me. I owe them so much...but this is one dept I don't know how to pay back. I really don't know what I'd do without them. Even though I often feel like I don't belong at least they're there and it not just some dream I'm forced to wake up from. I'd gladly take every bitter day or painful moment I've ever been through again just to makes sure I never loose them. They showed me the brighter side of life..actually gave me a reason to live. So thank you guys. Especially Megan, Jered, Terra, Sara, Ginger, and Matt.
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Few things to say...and alot on my mind
10.17.03 (4:05 pm) [edit]I was going to udate during 2nd period but my teacher went kamikaze on us so I didn't get the chance. I love the woman to death and she's a great teacher, but I'd rather take on 10 pickketts than mess with that woman on a bad day!!!! She scary..and I don't asay that lightly. Aside from that my days has been boring.....although I did get yelled at twice in 4th period for reading instead of watch some dumba** movie. You'd think I'd quite after being yelled at the first time...Not Me!! :D
To be nobody but yourself in a world that's doing its best to make you somebody else is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting
~e.e. cummings
ALONE AGAIN
I'm here alone again
Waiting for you here again
Tired of trying to get ahead
Gottin where I don't give a damn
Lost again in this endless hell
Fighting back against distiny
Leaving me here
Alone again
Stone gray eyes peering back at me
Hands of stone gripping me
Tears of blood covering me
Tried to run only to fall again
Livin in this hell of mine
Cast away to my pain
I'm here
Alone again
To tired to care
I'm left to stare
To scared to move
To willful to stay
I'm fighting back against everything
Just killing time
10.17.03 (6:50 am) [edit]I've got to leave for school soon...kinda hoping I'll miss the bus. :lol: Not that it'll happen. .....three minutes to go...................two............one........ok gotta go!! BYe-BYe
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Drug around town and nothing to show for it...
10.16.03 (4:10 pm) [edit]We had that stupid career day thing at school. All the juniors get shiped off to a college to check out possible job interests....booooring. Well it did get me out of 1st and 2nd period so I'm not complaining...to bad anyway. This week has been great...actually the past two weeks have been. I need to go dig up some junk to make this thing a little better...cya peeps [image]ShadowWalker_72201 5105.jpg[/image]
I'm BACK!!
10.15.03 (10:33 pm) [edit]My other blog screwed up on me so I started a new one! :roll: Always my luck...soemthing always has to be a pain!